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"Where have all the red roses gone?" I ask myself as I cut through the thread of crosses across my chest. "Thump, thump, thump..." Beats my heart even as I pull it out. When I thought that this pain would kill me, I realized it was there- it happened so I could feel alive. Sometimes, pain is a reminder that we feel, that we are alive. And as the clock ticks by, as rosebuds bloom, I heal, and I am ready to love and hurt Once more.

I think I have hurt myself more with the expectations that come with love than with love itself. Don't you, too? Do you not come home expecting a message telling you to rest after a long day? Do you not stay up late sometimes, waiting for a phone call that is most likely not to come? Do you not wish you could be the reason behind someone's smile, the way s/he is to you? Do you not just wish for someone to love you? Don't you? As I keep on pondering, and as this list of "do you not"s keeps on getting longer, I think it's time I think about something else. I think it's time I stop waiting. I think it's time I start loving... ...myself.

In a place where everyone would have not known, he lives; a place where everyone would not have given a damn; where every little thing about him would have been a failure; where nobody cares about him, he lives. "People come and go," they say, and they actually do – sometimes when we need them not to. Pure insecurity is in his body and mind. Every single thing that he sees that is of others,’ reflects back to him dire. He's exhausted, and he needs the genuine love and care he is deprived of. Every night, he cries. Despite all of the problems the world has given to him, the only thing that he can do is to wipe the tears that dropped from his precious eyes for no one would do that for sure. Now here he is, fighting for what he has to. You can see him giving his best, doing everything he has to, and making the best decisions for himself. Think. With everything that the world throws to you, is it now the right time to give up? You have done too much alre...

All I want in life is pure happiness But where it gets me is mere nothingness Because I shut myself in silence and darkness To protect myself from this world's cruel harness I ran away from all the things that hurt me Of what life will bring, why can't I let it be? I was afraid to face reality 'Cause we know, it only brings painful tragedy Hatred, rejection, brokenness and grave danger are all that I've found in all of the world's corners Too blind to see the brightness of the light For I blocked everything nice away from my sight But then, I realized, after all this time For I have already reached the end of the line I have to stand up and fearlessly open doors Accept everything and change my life's own course.

Hate made us strong Bullets within words Fighting without swords But clashing with powers Black as coal But light made the moon Making problems go With a definite solution I met you in the dark With your swollen eyes Our paths made us collide Hating each other that night You treat me as your enemy But I don't even care Making you filled with hate Ready to harm me instead There are so many cruel people That want me to be in danger But you chose to help me Decided to forget your anger Young man, You became my savior I knew that you were falling But you didn't want to admit it What are you afraid of? Afraid of rejection? But why don't you try? Don't you want to know the answer? Take the risk now, Or lose without giving a shot Beat your fear And be a man with strength You are my suitor The man who never gave up Support me with what I love Patience is all around I answered yes! We are now a couple Happiness overload Love made u...

Inside the school called PMCHS , Among the grade 10 , there's the class of Socrates For four years, they are students of science class , But relationships and memories, for longer will last. With the additional subjects like Computer Science and Research, Sometimes it gets tiring, But they enjoy it like no other. Some of these students who study with glee are Ralph and Karissa , Rhiana , and Erin . Now they are about to finish Their adventurous Junior High School Some may be sad, some may weep But with love, they know, their hearts are full.

Under the twinkling of the stars, I looked at the figure that makes me smile Though I try to hide this bit of joy, Her light is one you can't avoid. Gaze is far at the other isle, Standing still, hoping for a call, No matter how much I wait, for a long, long while, It seems like I can't move from who it is I fall. Like the way I'd fit all the musical notes in the scores I use for my guitar At first, it seems to understand it is something I don't Now I can't even stay still when from me, you're far. With every nip of the cold winds at my skin, With every chirp of the free passerine birds, Arms wrapped around the freezing body, Mind restless, still and forever troubled. Like the way a mother kisses her child, Love so evident and truly remarkable Every day, I fall in love all over again Every second I spend with you is as valuable.

Tonight, I find myself lounging around the balcony. Just like I did last night. And the night before. And... the other night. It's strange, really. Just some time ago, I could remember the two of us soaked under the light of the full moon, conversing about what type of weather did each of us prefer. We both agreed that the warm summer sun was better than the cold winter nights. It's strange. No matter how cold the night is, I just don't see myself going inside the warm comfort of my bedroom any minute now. Maybe it's because I'm waiting for something. It's strange. Love is strange. I don't even grow tired of waiting anymore. I think it's become a habit. To wait for your velvety voice luring me into you even deeper every time. It's like... I fall in love with you for the first time with every serenade you sing. It's like I'm taken back to the first time you held that guitar and decided you have picked me to sing for. ...

The bell rings And you turn your head to me Greeting once again with that toothy grin A warm welcome This place outside feels more like home than home. "Come sit. The usual?" Even you know me better than how he knows me. Bitter, bitter black drips from the machine Just my daily dose of relief. Serve me 'nother cup And we'll drown Even your sweet words are no match for this bitter His bitter The flavor he's left on me How could I forget? Serve me 'nother cup.